Friday, April 26, 2013

My little sister

So, about a month ago, (March 18, 2013) I get a text message from Rachelle (my sister) and she says that she needed a ride to her dr apt. and I had to work that day. So, she said that she has something to tell me. I was so confused. A bunch of things rushed through my head. The first thing that ran through my head was maybe she’s pregnant…. No, she couldn’t be. But then I thought again..  I think she is. I get a long text from her telling me. Sure enough, she says that she thinks she’s pregnant. I was over joyed. A million questions ran through my head. I asked how she knows. She pretty much said, I have this feeling.  She took a pregnancy test which tested positive. And she was going to the doctors to check to see if she has a bladder infection and to see if she’s going to be a mommy. I cried with joy and excitement. I was the first person she told. She was so nervous to tell mom and dad. We went in, and sure enough the test was positive.  So the following week she had an ultra sound. Mom and I went with her. We found out that she was 24 weeks and 2 days along, due July 20 and having a girl!! J I think she’s going to be early.

About January, I had this dream. And in that dream, I was babysitting a little beautiful girl with blonde hair and blue eyes. Then Rachelle came and picked her up and gave her love and kisses like a wonderful mommy. And then I woke up. So, confused. It was stuck in my head all day. All I thought about was, is this real, is my dream telling me something. Is God sending me a message to prepare ourselves to tell Rachelle to prepare herself for such a life changing time in her life. I’m not sure. I just feel so blessed and so happy for our family to grow. I’m going to be an aunt for the second time. But feels like the first time. I have such a strong love and care for this tiny little human that isn’t born yet. It’s un-describable. I’m sure the love that Shell has for her, is even stronger.

This little baby is going to be so loved and have so much support growing up. All the boys in the family thought she was going to have a boy. But I already knew!

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Puppy Love

Jelly Bean


We love our cute, adorable, p.i.t.ass cuddly puppy who we’ve had for 5 months. She’s so fun to have and yet, so complicated to deal with when she gets in that puppy phase and wants to CHEW everything up, or doesn’t want to listen!!! But, we still love her to pieces!!  

Sunday, January 22, 2012


Jessi Diane

A girl who I never even imagined to have a relationship with

I got to know her

Got to see how she is

What did I discover was something I will never let go


Your heart, so tender, yet so tough

Your love, so sweet, so strong

Nobody knows exactly what you’ve been through

But you grow stronger and stronger everyday

I wish there was a way to express every feeling that I have for you

There is always going to be days when you always feel like giving up

We all go through those

But I’m going to be here for you

Going to help you get through these tough trials

Going to keep that tender heart safe

I’m going to love you with a strong love

I’m going to listen to you when you cry

I’m going to be that shoulder to lean on

I may not have words to say

But I am ALWAYS listening

I’m never ignoring you

If anything, I’m loving you MORE every second
I love you Jessi
My queen! <3

Saturday, December 10, 2011


So, I don’t care who you are, but
yorkie puppies are the cutest little things EVER!

 I can’t wait to have a puppy like this!! <3
So, little and full of energy and love


Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Crazy girl

I don’t know what to even say right now.
I’m just lost of words for how I feel for this girl.
She’s everything I’ve ever wanted. The way she smiles drives me wild. Her looks are so heartwarming. The way she kisses me makes my heart beat hard and fast. I trust her more than I have ever trusted before. Some people may not handle the way she is, but why is it so hard to not? She’s average, been through enough crap... But who hasn’t? She’s strong hearted and has a will to get through the tough times in life. Everything in life is hard when you’re young. It gets so much easier in time! Jessi, you’re amazing!
“Baby why you wanna cry?
You really oughta know that I
Just have to walk away sometimes

We're gonna do what lovers do
We're gonna have a fight or two
But I ain't ever changing my mind

Crazy girl, don't you know that I love you?
I wouldn't dream of going nowhere
Silly woman come here let me hold you
Have I told you lately I love you like crazy, girl?

I wouldn't last a single day
I'd probably just fade away
Without you I'd lose my mind

Before you ever came along
I was living life all wrong
The smartest thing I ever did was make you all mine”

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

The Feeling

Butterflies in the stomach is a phenomenon characterized by the physical sensation of a "fluttery" feeling in the stomach. This sensation can be a physical sensation related to the body's fight or flight response or it can be an ineffable (is concerned with ideas that cannot or should not be expressed in spoken words) experience related to the psychology of love or nervousness and excitement.
Some believe that this is caused by the release of adrenaline when one is nervous, which pulls blood away from the stomach and sends it to the muscles. This reduced blood flow, in turn, causes the stomach to temporarily shut down, and is possibly the reason for reduced appetite during love sickness.

Butterflies in the stomach is most often experienced prior to important events, related to nervousness and can be experienced in situations of impending danger.
It is common for one to feel butterflies in the stomach when in the early stages of a relationship. It can be caused by nervousness and fear of the unknown. Butterflies in the stomach are often seen as a positive and harmless sign of subconscious feelings for romantic interest and are caused by the release of mood-altering endorphins. They are especially frequent in teenage romances. Many adults who have experienced multiple relationships themselves tend to experience this feeling more frequently at the time of an important life event. Sometimes just sitting back, relaxing and taking deep breaths can help to relieve the feeling.

-This is pretty much how i'm feeling right now, and i wouldn't change that for anything. This feeling is going to last a long time. I have to admit, I'm lucky to have such a beautiful and an amazing girl to be in my life! This is just the beginning! :o)

Monday, October 3, 2011


“The beauty that addresses itself to the eyes is only the spell of the moment; the eye of the body is not always that of the soul.” –George Sand